Skittles

9:04PM

What up mother fuckers!...whats new.....i dont have a car lol that was gone a LONG time ago..i work at sal's midnights ... umm mi still havent gone back to school... ry and i are still together:D ...met some new peeps ...went to the bar for my firstest time ever that was great nine drinks later...lol ... thats it for now gnight kids

5:44PM

So, It's been a year for Ryan and I. I Have a car. Other then that nothing new.

1:28PM

Stressed? What about? Rudy doesn't clean up after himself or is it the fact that I let it bother me? Ryan and I don't have a lot of qualtiy time together or is the fact that I am bored in my own activies and have nothing really going for myself. I don't have my grade 12 or is it the fact that I let other peoples opinions bother me. It seems that the second option comes out on top for each of these problems so If it's things within myself how do I fix them? ....Does not worry about them fix them? How do you just stop being stressed out?

9:55PM

Я обожаю Вас
My heart beats faster
My flesh tingles
My mind spins like mad
yet at the same time i am complpetly stable

The bird inside of my heart soars,every monment i'm with you

I can't explain in any language how I feel for you
How you complete me
How without you I wouldnt be the same person
How I couldn't see my life without you

Even though I have no words to decribe my love for you,my sunshine
I beleive you know excalty how I feel

As we end our first year together
I think back to the day I met you, the day I feel in love with you which was also the day
I knew I would be your forever
I will always adore you,Ryan Dion
yours forever
A.B.S.2.B.A.D

9:17PM

Я обожаю Вас
(my poem to you ry ry...in greek:P)
My καρδιά δέρνω πιο γρήγορα , My σάρκα tingles , My μυαλό σπανάκι αρέσω τρελός μα ταυτόχρονα my μυαλό is ολοκληρώνω stable The πουλί εσωτερικός του my καρδιά soars,every passing λεπτό με σένα εγώ can't εξηγώ μέσα οποιοσδήποτε langauge πωs αισθάνομαι πωs you ολοκληρώνω εμένα πωs χωρίs you εγώ θα να είμαι το ίδιο πρόσωπο πωs εγώ can't βλέπω myself χωρίs you όπως εμείs διορίζω the τελείωμα του πρώτος χρόνοs μαζί εγώ προσπαθώ βρίσκω ways εξηγώ my αγαπώ για σένα The λέξη don't exsit μα για μερικά αιτία εγώ don't πιστεύω έχουν σε εγώ πιστεύω ότι you my sunshine ,you γνωρίζω excalty πωs αισθάνομαι στιν υγειά σασ σε πολλοί πολλοί χρόνια με σένα my αγαπώ για εγώ θα πάντοτε λατρεύω you
(L)

9:13PM

everytime i hear this song i think of kella nothing really just kella comes to mind

2:31AM

Wow! Okay so last night Allan and I ate 3&1/2 grams of mushrooms each. Our night all started around 11pm begining our trip in subway watching the grossest happy fat lady who was covered in sauce eat her huge sub...we made our way to the bus stop where I thought it would be best for me to throw up:S whatever I was starting to get pretty high while we waiting for a bus that never came after walking a good distance we got on a not in service bus and headed down to ass park to meet up with some people from my work,who never picked up the cell when we got there. We then decided to walk threw the park which nothing was happing at because we got the so late. We were too high to care. Laying in the the grass, talking about
everything possible walking, from ass park to the holiday inn, taking a cab (which was a engrey efficent cab) falling and sracping my knee, laying in my bed/couch and continuing one of the best conversations,being to lazy to get up and get a drink, finally getting a drink, saying we were gonna watch the power ranger movies,never having the will to get up and out on the movies, eating parts of a undercooked pizza,trying to go to sleep ,balling my eyes out catching my breath then go back to hang out with allan because i couldn't sleep thinking i wasnt going to cry again, crying again, having allan try to make me laugh, laughing crying and trying to breathe at the same time, allan breaking my blinds, finally be able to go to sleep,sharing my bed with allan, waking up to find out my snoring drove allan out of the bed, thinking i was able to be up ,eating some soup, playing ff7, talking to ryan, laying in bed with allan until his mom came to pick him up ,sleeping til 4 then heading to my moms to recive a dinner cupcakes birthday presents and $50 ....yea i can say i had a pretty damn good weekend so far:D ryan gets back from camping tomorrow:D tuesday is 11 months ...thats crazy one month short of year ..i see remember when we met! it seems like yesturday:D i still remember being excited about our 6months... i guess that saying is true time does fly when your having fun:D.... anyways i'm out for the night ....

3:56PM

ITS MY BIRTHDAY GUYS!19 years old! woot ! Ryan the sweetheart that he is bought me flowers! and a cake with a froggie on it! and threw me a party which was wicked!yay!

Current mood: chipper

1:01PM

hummm i dont know if things are good or bad??
I havent worked in the last 3 weeks
I start a new job at salsbury house tomorrow
Ryan and I are just that Ryan and I theres nothing more to it
i'm not unhappy in my relsationship i guess you can say i'm comfterble and settled in ...im content last night we tried to have a threesome with a girl that wasnt completly open to the idea and ended up watching us have sex which she said she was okay with :S i hope we didnt pressure her to much
i'm not really sure what i'm feeling :S but its not a bad feeling?¿?

5:41PM

I wait
for him to come home
for him to get offline so that he will hear what it is i have to say
for him to finish everything esle before i'm concered
for him to show me he cares
for him to tell me he loves me
for him to lay near me(not cuddle but at least in the same bed)
for him to complent me
for him to help me
for him to spend time with me
for him to inclued me
sometimes it happens but because i've waited so long it doesnt seem worth it
sometimes i feel others will never happen
sometimes i feel he's planning so much for his kids furtures but what about us? here and now?
when will i bee showed that i'm appciated?
when will i stop waiting?

4:44PM

ERGH! I DO NOT LIKE ANDREW! HE IS LAZY AND ANNOYING AND A BUM I CANT WAIT UNTIL HE MOVES OUT!...He's a nice guy. that is almost the only postive thing I can say about him. He makes up LAME excuses why he cant go find a job He is like a child, He doesnt clean up after himself He sleeps all day long plays his stupid game and collects welfare! I'm sick of him. He's not very smart and I feel like I have to babysit him. Ryan seems to think i'm overracting but ryan isn't here all the time to see him , its like he needs someone to hold his hand. Him moving out will be the best birthday gift. God I hate lazy people ...go out and do something! .... anyways I went for my interview at Pizza hotline and got the job ! but its part time so only like 15 hrs a week...which is okay..so afterwards i decided to apply at salbury house again and after the manager heard what happened to me at perkins he hired me right away! :) so i'll end up working about 40hrs a week and i'll be making tips at sals... woot! :)...

2:38PM

when i was a kid i was walked all over by my friends ...spit on by others to be left unnamed and pretty much treated like shit because i never had the balls to stand up to anyone then i somehow i dont remeber how or when i became angry and more or less a bitch... that didnt last long i became understand and kind ...i think i still am but it has recently been discourverd that i am controlling ... if anyone would like to help me "let go " this will be very halpfull right now i feel incredably lost ...

Current mood: lost

4:00PM

I have put up posters,advertised it put money into it,given feedback helped out in anyway i can...i'm not considered part of glhf.gg even tho when i call other places for sponours i say i am. on top of that i spend little time with ryan. he is less affectionate ...he wasnt very affectionate to begin with. it used to be that he would wake up cuddle with me for a while maybe 10-20mins eat go online watch star trek go to work come home go online eat watch star trek and go to sleep ...now its get up go online make calls eat go to work come home go online(even tho he was online at work) watch star trek and sleep ...matthias was right as soon as he starts a bussiness i will see half of what i see now and it true ... i want to support him i do i know hes building a future for us ...but is he always going to be looking into the furture? when do i get my time?? he and rob went and got sponured and he called and told me the good news and im happy for him but now him and rob went to have a beer.. and they have a meeting with cbass at 7 so on his day off i pretty much wont see him til 11 which makes me upset be i stand by him and support him and wheres my thnx? well i'm going for a nap seeing as i really have nothing to do until he gets home ..i feel so loney

5:22PM

3.1415926535897932384626433837950288419716939937510 that is the first 51 digits of pi ...I just memorized it ...i took about 42mins to memrioze it ...i wonder how long it would take to memrioze the first million digits? other then that ...lately i've been canned from perkins ...so ive been job searchingish...i promised ryan i'd have a job by the end of the week... i intend to be true about that...i'm prettty sure i'll get hired at sals hopefully i'm not wrong ...otherwise i will crawl back to my job at burger king ... anyways i dont have much to say other then being a trekie i'v ehavent done much lately...i'm gonna make some food later gaters

8:30PM

So i went to a dj spin off last night that was fun once the e kicked in....but it ended to early i was jsut starting to have a great time and it was 2 time to go... but i didnt get home til 3:30 or 4 didnt fall asleep til about 7 my head hurts so much right now ... we are hosting a bbq and only half the people showed up it was to dicuss ryans camping trip and they havent talked about anything in regards to it and i'm going to a party later ... i think i'm going to sleep until we go aleast i want to ... my head is ponding never mix beer with e....

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Current mood: bouncy

4:08PM

Your Brain is 47% Female, 53% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female You are both sensitive and savvy Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

2:53PM

You Are a Frappacino

At your best, you are: fun loving, sweet, and modern At your worst, you are: childish and over indulgent You drink coffee when: you're craving something sweet Your caffeine addiction level: low

8:32PM

just passing time before my bus comes gonna meet rhino at his work then go see the devinchi code i'm excited i did soo much today i got up early and went down to sisler and saw some folks and got transripts i went down to polo and walked around for a bit and head down to meet rhinoto pick up some stuff before he went to work ran into dayna and tlaked to her for a bit and then headed to my moms and then we headed to xscargo and bought rhino a comp desk and then went to sals and my mom bought dinner and then headed home in about 10 mins i'm going to lesve for the bus and now i've ran out of this to talk about , in my day so bye bye for now ladies and gents'

4:02PM

Jamie leaves for India soon...Ryan is very torn up about losing his best friend even if it is only for six months. I wish there was something more I could do for him. I guess I'll just have to continue to be there for him when he needs me and hopefully the six months will fly by. With the upcoming Lan party ,camping trip, our One year and everything esle that is going on I hope He will be able to distrack himself enough to be able to continue his projects without much sorrow towards the missing Jamie. It is only six months, but that is really the longest Ryan and Jamie will ever be seperated. Jamie is closer to Ryan then his own "Brothers". Because Ryan and Jamie are so close and because of the upcoming departure Ryan has asked Jamie to draw a symbol that Jamie feels reflets their friendship the most. Jamie has, it is very simple but never the less it will be tatooed on Ryan's back(right above his shoulder blades) tomorrow afternoon. It amazes me how beauitful Ryan and Jamie's relationship is. They have known each other their entire lives and grown together in such a way that can't be explained. I'm very jealous that I don't have that with someone in my life but also very thrilled to see such caring people. They have both taught me so much I am upset to see Jamie leave but regardeless it is only six months. In Other news. I am ALOMST fulley trained at Perkins and unlike my last job, I love it! It is changelling (lots to remember) but everyone is very helpfull and very kind. I have made some beginings of what may be close friendships. Things between Ryan and I Just get better and better as the days go on. I threw a small party this past weekend and the people I really wanted to come down did and I had a great night. Things are looking up and it's exciting:)...Ye'HAH! (I'm a cowboy by the way)....anyways time to wash clothes ..goodnight everybody. :)